I love to sabotage things. Especially when it comes to weight.
I remember a time in my life when I struggled so hard to lose weight, but I'd binge as soon as it started to come off. Has this ever happened to you? It was almost as if I felt like I earned the binge because of the weight I’d lost.
But of course, that mentality only brought back the weight I'd lost, and more...
There are other reasons why I’d gain more weight back than I lost… Many times it was because I felt deprived while I was losing weight, so I’d be scared of going hungry again and overeat. Or maybe my weight was the way it was for a reason, and trying to lose it was actually doing more harm than good.
Right now in my life, keeping the weight I have makes me feel really good, even though it's not considered the ideal "skinny" to which our culture aspires. I feel frail, uncomfortable, and exposed when I’m too thin. Staying the way I am makes me feel strong, feminine, and grounded. It makes me feel like a woman.
When I used to diet and restrict food, the weight loss would give me attention, but it didn’t always feel right to me. It makes sense I’d sabotage my weight-loss and gain it all back.
I invite you to check in with your own body and feel into what weight feels best for you. There's no right or wrong size for how you're supposed to look. What size makes you feel good? What size makes you healthy, agile, strong, safe, energized? It might just be the one you’re at right now…
Sending so much love and appreciation to the beautiful, temporary body suit you’re wearing in this moment, exactly as it is.
Can you relate to what I wrote? Want to connect about stepping into a body you love and feeling relaxed and empowered around food? Here's a link to my calendar so you can reserve a time for us to have a totally free 30-min chat.
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